![]() When we got outside to the cemetery they was lowering her casket into the ground, I walked up to Karrueche and held her hand and she squeezed my hand as she broke down in to tears. “Yes you can, come on” he said then he helped me up and walked with me out of the church. ![]() ![]() “Well for starters you should come with me right now to the cemetery to say your last goodbyes to Kacey” “Listen you need to be strong if not for yourself do it for the rest of your kids they need you more than ever now and as much as she may not say it Karrueche needs you too” “I can’t help but feel responsible” I told him “I should’ve protected her” “This was not your fault, everything happens for a reason, she truly is in a better place” “Chris” I heard someone say behind me, I turned around and it was Karrueche’s father. I was numb I couldn’t move, I just seriously wanted this to all be a bad nightmare but I knew it wasn’t. The priest then carried on with the service and then it was time to bury her but I wasn’t strong enough to do that. “On behalf of Chris and Karrueche and the rest of the family I just want to thank you all for being here and to finish off what Chris was going to say is that Kacey will forever live on in our hearts, she will always be our little angel. Mijo then ran up and helped Karrueche bring me down from the podium back to my seat and then went back up to speak to everyone, The feeling of her arms wrapped around me made me feel a little bit better but I couldn’t control myself i’ve been trying to stay strong but I couldn’t nobody should have to bury their child. I then fell to floor in a flood of tears and unexpectedly Karrueche ran up to comfort me. “I’m so sorry” I cried “Kacey i’m so sorry I didn’t protect you, i’m so sorry…….why did they have to take my baby” She wasn’t breathing anymore, there was no pulse, she was gone Her eyes then closed, I kept shaking her but she wasn’t responding. “It’s gonna be alright just stay with me baby, come on Kacey, Kacey” ![]() “It’s alright baby it’s gonna be alright" “No No No” I cried as I picked her up “It’s ok it’s ok daddy is here Kacey” and now she’s” I could feel that I was about to cry and I tried to hold it in as best as a I could but I couldn’t, just looking at the casket made me break down. But with all that said the past 10 years have the best years of my life, from the moment I held her in my arms I knew she was special and she had my heart……. I hate the fact that I’ll never see her smile again and that i’ll never get to experience threatening all the boys that look in her direction. It still hasn’t sunk in that she’ll never run up to me and wrap her arms around me telling me how much she loves me. ![]() “Umm first of I want to thank everyone for coming, it’s just a shame we have to be here to say goodbye to someone we love so much. The only good thing is Trey has been amazing during all this he has really been the backbone of the family, he has helped Brandon and Aiden to understand what was going on and helped them deal with their feelings so I take my hat off to him.Īs soon as the service started I couldn’t help but cry especially with everyone getting up and saying some really beautiful things about my baby girl. Since the shooting she hasn’t said one word to me and I just know she blames me and I don’t blame her for blaming me. Karrueche was sitting on the other side of the church and she looked like she wasn’t coping. I looked around me and everyone was crying. I felt numb I just wanted to wake up and this be a dream and not reality. I constantly keep thinking why didn’t they just shoot me instead of my baby girl, I should’ve protected her, this shouldn’t be happening but instead i’m here in the church sitting right across from a casket that had my only daughter inside. The last few weeks have been the toughest days of my life, knowing that I will never get to hold her, or tell her I love her again just makes me more and more depressed. I’m about to bury my little girl, my baby, my only daughter. I can’t believe what is about to happen, never in a million years did I think this would happen. ![]()
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